And that quote belongs with this quote:
And boy do my goals SCARE me!
But you know what? They also excite me. ALOT. In fact I'd say the excitement level is HUGE.
HUGEMaybe it's because I am on the verge of accomplishing one of my goals that I always had (I've been saying I wanted to write a book since I was in high school) but never truly believed I would do.
The goal wasn't even to be published.. Although that is the next goal on my to do list, it was just to write a book. And I am almost there (Like 7 days away)
I set a deadline, I created a 30 before 30 list. 30 goals to accomplish before I'm 30.
And you know what else? A lot of those goals were bull *it. I had trouble creating 30 of them, the only one that mattered, was the writing of this book. I had let the fear of failure keep me from this goal for far to long.
In the beginning the fear was deafening, there was very little excitement.
Once I started writing the fear lessened, and the excitement grew. Now I am so freaking excited, I've got a perma-smile. NOTHING CAN KILL MY JOY!
and I do mean nothing, I've had a shitty past couple of weeks. But my writing has saved me. I channeled my negative emotions into it, and was left with joy and beauty.
Nothing feels better than reaching a goal you thought you couldn't do!
Still on step 1: Write book ( 6 day's left. Im going camping this weekend, otherwise I would probably reach the goal sooner. )
Word count: 97, 636 ( about 3,000 words to go.... I wrote more than that yesterday alone. I've so got this!)