Friday, July 26, 2013

Music mode

An extra post today, since I'm camping tomorrow and wont be posting ;)

I wanted to start organizing my book playlist. Not all books have one, but it seems to be a growing trend and well my characters seem to be speaking through these songs.

This is just the start:

  • Stay- Rihanna Ft. Mikky Ekko 
All of the other songs are equal, but this is the anthem for my book!!!!

  • Everything Has Changed- by Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran

  • Kiss Me- Ed Sheeran

  • Let me love you- Ne- Yo

There's more, but this is just off the top of my head. I have to start gathering them all together. I think the rest will be country, since the main character is into that.

Still on step 1: Write book ( 6 day's left- minus one day off for camping, but I'll be planning.)

Word count: 97, 636   ( about  3,000 words to go.... I wrote more than that yesterday alone. I've so got this!)


Jumping the gun, but it's a foregone conclusion.

And that quote belongs with this quote:

And boy do my goals SCARE me!

But you know what? They also excite me. ALOT. In fact I'd say the excitement level is HUGE.


Maybe it's because I am on the verge of accomplishing one of my goals that I always had (I've been saying I wanted to write a book since I was in high school) but never truly believed I would do.


The goal wasn't even to be published.. Although that is the next goal on my to do list, it was just to write a book.  And I am almost there (Like 7 days away)

What changed?

I set a deadline, I created  a 30 before 30 list. 30 goals to accomplish before I'm 30.

 And you know what else? A lot of those goals were bull *it. I had trouble creating 30 of them, the only one that mattered, was the writing of this book. I had let the fear of failure keep me from this goal for far to long.

In the beginning the fear was deafening, there was very little excitement.

Once I started writing the fear lessened, and the excitement grew.  Now I am so freaking excited, I've got a perma-smile. NOTHING CAN KILL MY JOY!

and I do mean nothing, I've had a shitty past couple of weeks. But my writing has saved me. I channeled my negative emotions into it, and was left with joy and beauty.

Nothing feels better than reaching a goal you thought you couldn't do!

Still on step 1: Write book ( 6 day's left. Im going camping this weekend, otherwise I would probably reach the goal sooner. )

Word count: 97, 636   ( about  3,000 words to go.... I wrote more than that yesterday alone. I've so got this!)


Thursday, July 25, 2013

Love is hard to get right.

I'd venture to say the above quote is true for many things in life, including love.

Like my book. The past couple of day's I had been writing very little. The characters just weren't ready to speak to me, and when I forced them to come forward the dialogue seemed just that, forced.

Today I have written a couple thousand words and it just keeps coming. But I have to take a break because of my smalls, they need their mom.

I think I will upgrade them this morning from smalls, to wildlings. Cause that's how they are acting. It's my fault though, kids turn wild when they lack adults supervision.

So writing, kids behaviors, and love.. it's either too little or too much. It's hard to find that fine line of just right. But when you do... Ahh perfection.

Hey, I've got a treat for you today. A peak at my book. 

(I am good at pretending to have followers. This is easy to do. It shouldn't surprise anyone since I've been conversing/ arguing with characters in my head for the past year.)

My characters were struggling with love today:

Ethan hopped off the wall and pulled me toward the edge, so my legs straddled his waist. Our eyes were level with each other as he rested his hands on my hips. “I want you and only you. And more than that, I want all of you, including your faults.”

His lips claimed mine and I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck, absorbing his passion and drowning out my doubts. His confidence in what he wanted filled me and I knew then that I couldn’t hold on anymore. I let my feelings flood into the kiss, into him. I ran my hands down his back trying to get closer to him. His hands traveled under my shirt, up my back. My skin tingled and heated where he touched me, as if his hands could shape me and mold me into something that matched him perfectly. And I wished they could mold me into something whole, which could love him completely, as he deserved to be loved. Sadness filled my kiss as I thought about the holes in me that were bound to leave him feeling just as empty.

Ahh I love Ethan... And I hope everyone else does too. I also hope Kate (the voice of the story) is able to work her stuff out and be there for him.

Still on step 1: Write book ( 7 day's left , YIKES)

Word count: 96,003   ( about 4,000 words to go.... hmm I might have to give myself an extra 5,000) 


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Family scares the $#!+ out of me!

I have decided that I want it.

I am afraid of pieces of it though... Lets analyze this.

I LOVE the writing, when I'm in the moment and barely feel like I'm thinking. More like translating or what is it called when a medium speaks for a ghost? I don't know, but you get the point. I love that. It's easy and its fun. And I love learning new things about my characters.

So what scares me? Other people reading it. Mainly family and friends. To everyone else I'm faceless author, or they will associate me with the picture on the book (hey I can dream that it will get that far) But I do not want my family reading it.  Then I have to face them.

I took a brave step and told some of them I am writing a book, and it didn't ease my fears. It made it worst. Now they keep teasing that I'm writing about our crazy family and they ask,  what character are they?

I am writing a book, and there are obviously pieces of my personality in it, I mean it's kinda impossible not to do so. But it has nothing to do with my family.

And thats not really my fear, that they see themselves in the book. I cant really pinpoint why them reading  scares me but  I DO NOT WANT THEM TO READ MY BOOK.

Why? I don't know.

I have to get over it though because they could possibly be the only people who read it.

On another note, you might be wondering about my book (I'm gonna go ahead and pretend people read this blog) I am writing a new adult novel. Which I need to get back to, so more details later.

Still on step 1: Write book ( 8 day's left , YIKES)

Word count: 91,768   ( about 8,000 words to go.) 


Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I get so much done, when I'm supposed to be doing something else.

 With my deadline of 9 days looming, I started procrastinating planning ahead and looking at the next step.

 Query Agents. I came across 2 great sites:

agent query connect

and a site I had been on before for writing tips, but now found an interesting series

writers digest- Successful queries

Hmm... but I have to include the word count to my book... I need to finish it to do that so back to it.

Still on step 1: Write book ( 9 day's left)

Word count: 91,270   ( about 9,000 words to go.) 

FYI in college I rocked at the all nighter, and always turned in the best papers finished moments before the deadline... Somehow I don't think that's applicable to this situation.


Do you not realize I'm trying to eat!

^ That really has nothing to do with what I'm gonna write about today.

Except that it has everything to do with life. Sorry to burst anyone's bubble, but the tortoise and the hare was a load of crap. That turtle may have won the race, but that rabbit was still faster, he was just a lazy, cocky SOB.

Everyone messed up the moral to that story.. It wasn't slow and steady wins, it's cocky douches lose.

Now back to our normally scheduled blog:

Inspiration can hit anywhere, and for me it hits at the most inconvenient time. Always.

When I run, my mind brainstorms, more than that it's a hurricane of ideas. Problem is I don't carry pen and paper, I barely know how to carry my water bottle... but that's a completely different story. I know I've forgotten some good ideas out on the road, but that's ok cause I've come back with some of the best parts of the story.

At least when I run I know what I'm getting into. But when I'm in a crowded room and my characters start going crazy in my head, its pretty inconvenient, not to mention rude to others who are trying to talk to me.

I'm in the middle of dinner last night and my two main characters decide to start arguing, but it's a really interesting argument.

Sorry smalls, mommy can't watch you tie your spaghetti in a knot, I've got to get back to writing.

Still on step 1: Write book ( 9 day's left)

Word count: 91,234  ( That number is amazing.. but crap since it's not much further than yesterday. Picking up speed today, no distractions.) 


Monday, July 22, 2013

I truly want to watch TV!

Many things aren't equal, but everyone gets the same 24 hours a day, 7days a week. We make time for what we truly want.

I read about a self published author who writes her books in 2 weeks. (She probably doesn't have the smalls running around)

I spend too many of those hours, watching TV. All those HBO and Showtime series... Awesome and addicting. (I currently am watching Dexter, as I type this.)   30 minutes down so far today.

I also spend too much time reading, all though it's hard to think of this as wasted, I now consider it research and educational. I can do that now that I'm writing my own book.

Ahh back to my book... I only have 10 days left, so I am banned from reading other books for the next 10 days and I will limit my tv. (Hey Its the middle of Tru blood series, I cant miss what happens to Sookie.)

Now to get back to it.

Still on step 1: Write book (10 day's a way.  I got this)

Word count: 90,746  ( I have to get on this, I have a whole list of things I did instead yesterday, but what I truly want is to get this story out, so I need to prioritize accordingly.)


Sunday, July 21, 2013

I do things my way... once I check that your way's not better.

^ My motivation for the day :)

A friend and I were talking about life lessons we have learned, that we really want our smalls to know. (Preferably a lot sooner than when we learned it).

 I told him, I only just fully accepted that there's no directions to life.  In everything I did, school, job, kids, house decorating, etc.. I always googled it, to see how others were doing it.  Well, I finally realized that I wasted a bunch of time. I mean, yes, I still google for inspiration and ideas, but I don't keep going for hours once I have formed an idea in my head.

I wasted a lot of time googling for a picture or directions for how to complete the idea's in my head. Well you know what. They weren't there, because they are my ideas, I needed to create the directions for it.

Same thing with my book. I googled how to write, I was really concerned with the process. Should I write in a linear line or hop around?  how should I organize chapters? Should I write in first person? Should I write in present or past tense?

Well the consensus was develop your idea and then write the way that feels most comfortable for you. The way that your story tells you to write. And it will speak to you ( See my previous post) .

I will stop wasting time being concerned with how others are writing or what they are writing, I need to write my own book, my way.

Still on step 1: Write book (Only 11 days left! EEK)

Word count: 90,438   ( I had to clean yesterday so I only increased 500 words. Ill make it up today ;) )


Saturday, July 20, 2013

Bruce Lee told me I could.

" A goal is not always meant to be reached, it often serves simply as something to aim at." - Bruce Lee

While I do think this quote is a little bit of a cop out, I'm going with it.

I had a goal: Finish my book.

I think I need to refine it and set a deadline.

New and improved goal: I will finish my book by the end of July.

That is  (checking calendar) 12 day's away, including today.  I estimate that I have about 20,000 words left in me for this book (maybe less). So I need to average (getting calculator) 1,667 words a day....

hmm Thursday night I said I had 87,372 words completed. At the moment I have 89,938 words and I haven't written today yet (hey I've got to put in some quality time with my smalls).  So, anywho, that means I have written 2,566 words in about a day and a half. My goal seems reasonable.  YES, GO ME.

SO I have something to aim at... I think  I can completely hit this target, but if I miss a little and I have to go into August then so be it, Thanks Bruce Lee for forgiving me my failures and letting me procrastinate :)

But I wont. I don't need a failure plan, cause my book will be done in 12 days. Then I will be an official author, weather the world reads it or not.  I will have completed a goal and that's an awesome feeling.

 STEP 1: Finish book - nearly there, 12 days away maximum.

Word count: 89,938



Friday, July 19, 2013

Not Stopping - except briefly to write this...

 Found this awesome article:

25 Things Writers Should Stop Doing

If ever you need to refocus and get back on track, go read that^

Ironically, I came across it while doing several of the things I should stop doing.

Namely Number 2: Stop Stopping

quoting the article: " the only way you can finish something is by not stopping. That story isn’t going to unfuck itself."

Yup... so with that piece of advice fresh in my head, let me get back to it.

Still on Step 1: Finish Book

Have Fun!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Gotta start somewhere.

I am a writer.

That's the first time I've said it out loud.. or wrote it down. Whatever. Semantics.

Why now?

Well tonight I have 87,372 words written in my novel. Happy dance for me. That makes it real.  I am going to finish my first book.

Is it finished, you ask? No

How much longer will it be? I'm not sure. I think it will have about another 20,000 words... I'm not even sure on the ending yet.

Ok don't bring me down. The process is pretty cool.

 I was all worried that I didn't have the book all mapped out. I attempted to a few times and even got a cool notebook  for the task. Cool notebook are always a motivator for me. 

But when I sat to write, the characters just didn't do what I told them to. Those bastards!

So then I had to go back and re write the outline... then I'd write and those people in my head would just do something else unplanned and, well you get the idea. The outline didn't work.

Tonight, I actually felt like my characters are going somewhere good. To clarify, they have been to lots of not good places, which should make for an interesting read. I know it was a blast to write. But now I can see that happy ending coming

So that's why I'm here. Writing this. Because I want to document my publishing journey. I want to have a place to put all the information I learn. And perhaps that will help someone else. At the very least it will help  me organize what I need to do.

Step 1. Finish the book   - Almost there.

  Have fun !